Warning!

Warning: This post contains the F word several times, stop reading now if you're easily offended.

 

I am absolutely f*cking fuming! All of my friends know that I'm a f*cking moody b*tch so it's about time I outed myself as such to the blogging community.

 

What the f*ck is wrong with this country? It's May 30th, the weather is TOTAL shite and I'm freezing my b*llocks off! I got wet on the way home and here I am at home ON THE 30TH OF MAY wearing 2 (yes, TWO) pairs of socks, my jeans, a t-shirt, a 100% wool cardigan (f*ck fashion, a wooly cardie is de riguer all year round!) and considering microwaving my pants in order to coax my balls out of their hiding place!

 

OK, I'm exaggerating! My balls are fine and I love my country but it's too cold for this time of the year! Come on Sun! Come out of the closet and show us what you can do; how quickly you can turn us pasty white brits into red lobsters!

 

Rant over! I feel much better now. I think it's time to have a hot shower.

 

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GayBoyDiary interviews FrozenFlame

The Official Interview Game continues with my interview of FrozenFlame.

FrozenFlame started blogging only a few days ago and his blog ("Confessions of a London Dancer: A secret diary of a young gay dancer in London") looks very promising. So far, it seems to do what it says on the tin, it reveals secrets about the life of a young gay dancer, living in London with his boyfriend. In his latest post, we find out that:

• his boyfriend ("Brad") does drugs (E).
• He gets turned on (and off) by his friend P.
• He used to be a rent boy.
• He is addicted to cruising and constantly visits saunas without Brad knowing.

Previously, he revealed that he is considering becoming a porn star.

Without further ado, FrozenFlame, here are your questions:

1. You mention that you are 22 years old and that you've been with Brad with for almost 3 years. Tell us about how you two met.
2. You are addicted to cruising and constantly visit saunas. You also love cruising toilets and Hampstead Heath. Tell us about what happened the first time you went cruising.
3. You are considering becoming a porn star and said that it's a bit of a secret fantasy. Other than getting paid, what other aspects appeal to you?
4. Some people believe that everyone has a price. How far are you willing to go for money?
5. Dance is obviously a big part of your life. Why did you decide to become a dancer?

I don't know about you but I am definitely looking forward to learning more about FrozenFlame.

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Rejection sucks!

Yes folks, you heard it here first! Rejection sucks! It doesn't matter if you're on the giving or the receiving end, although I think being on the receiving end may be a bit more difficult. How much it sucks depends on the situation. Getting rejected on Gaydar doesn't hurt nearly as much as getting rejected by someone you really fancy.

*STOP PRESS* I have recently started dating again! Will all eligible batchelors please send a two-page resume, recent passport and full-body photograph (clothing optional), bank statement and 2000-word essay on a topic of your choice to my email address for immediate consideration. Only shortlisted candidates will be contacted. B*stards do not need apply.

Anyway, I've had 4 (first) dates recently and ... I am still single. All dates were a lot of fun. Going out, drinking, laughing, flirting, etc. So why hasn't there been any second dates? Well, I'm not really sure what happened with 2 of the guys I met, not to take things any further was not my decision or, to rephrase that, I was rejected. That sounds a bit harsh, considering that I didn't make a move on them but since I was attracted to them and would have liked to meet them again, it's an accurate way of describing what happened.

As far as the other 2 guys were concerned, I didn't feel there was enough physical attraction to take things further. (If I was asked to offer dating advice my tip would be ... "Remember boys! Always brush your teeth before going on a date!"). As one of them had made it crystal clear that he fancied me and would like to see me again, while I didn't feel that way about him, I had to turn down his offer.

Being rejected affects even the most confident of people and I'd be lying if I said that my ego was unaffected. On the other hand, I find rejecting someone extremely difficult. I have tried to do it gently in the past but 9 times out of 10 it didn't work. I don't like hurting people but that doesn't mean that I'll suffer to make someone else happy, especially someone I've only just met.

I've always found it very difficult to say "no" to people but I think I'm getting better at it. [Special message for GayBanker and Saddle-Up: Thank you for your recent request to grant you access to my gaydar profile. After careful consideration, I regret to inform you that I am unable to fulfill your needs. Please don't ask me again! :o) ].

Putting the following into words is a bit difficult and will probably sound worse than it is ... Even though I didn't want to at the time, I have had sex with someone because it was too difficult for me to say no. It was someone I fancied and hoped to get to know better. We were both a little bit drunk and a little bit horny, I suppose. It was a first date and I didn't feel comfortable with the idea of having sex with him that soon. Basically he got in my bed, even though I said it wasn't a good idea (subtlety doesn't work when drunk), hands started to wander and things happened. It wasn't great sex and it wasn't bad sex.

He tried to do something I didn't want, I had the balls to tell him to stop and he respected that. I just wish I had the guts to tell him earlier. Anyway, we went through the motions and I was pretty much looking forward to the end. As I said, it isn't anything major, so I hope I don't sound like a drama queen. It's just that I didn't feel comfortable having sex that early and I wish I had made it clear from the outset.

The experience did affect me a little bit. I didn't really feel horny at all for 2-3 months after that, but I think that was just self-punishment for being so stupid, as opposed to any physical and mental damage. What I did learn from that experience is that sex is only fun if both parties are comfortable.

Sorry for the slightly depressing post!

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Today's hottie ... Ben Foster

I went to the cinema to watch X-Men: The Last Stand earlier on this evening and although I wasn't impressed with the film, I was pleased to see Ben Foster in the role of "Angel". What a hottie! He's got a well-chiselled face, striking blue eyes and nice lips. I don't like his chin very much but I can compromise, so, I wouldn't kick him out of bed in a hurry.


I particularly liked the part where he he took off his top and revealed a nice six-pack. Check out the following pic, the low-rise jeans certainly show off his assets!

What an Angel!

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Rudeness

Some people are just so rude!

I was on gaydar earlier on today just having a look who was around and noticed a guy who had a very nice body but was not my type (mainly due to facial hair). I didn't leave a comment but my account is set to leave a "track" to indicate that I visited his profile.

Anyway, I logged on a couple of hours later and noticed that this guy has viewed my profile and marked it with a star (meaning "That's nice"). Being the nice person that I am I thought I'd send him a message to acknowledge the star and thank him for it. So, I sent him a short and polite message but didn't ask any questions as I was not interested in anything further. This has happened many times and in my experience most people either do not respond or they are eager to take things further and try to start up a conversation.

Imagine my surprise when I got the following message from him: "Sorry mate ur not my type"! What the f@ck? If I wasn't his type why did he bother giving me a star? doh! Did he feel rejected because I didn't try to initiate a conversation? Was it just attitude? I don't understand men sometimes!

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GayBoyDiary interviewed by Gay Banker

After reading Gay Banker's answers to PJ's interview questions I offered to participate in the Official Interview Game (have a look at the rules at the end of this post if you want to take part). Gay Banker has come up with 5 excellent questions for me to answer.

Gay Banker also highlighted that some of my past blog posts have been contradictory to a certain extend, making me a "dark horse"! I like the sound of that! ;-)


Question 1: Apart from blue eyes, what other attributes would your perfect boyfriend have?

Very good question and one that is very difficult to answer. I don't think there is such a thing as a "perfect" boyfriend. I used to think that one day I will find my Mr Right but now I know that in order for a relationship to work there needs to be some compromise. Anyway, I'm digressing.

In terms of physical attributes, blue eyes are nice but not a requirement. A smile, on the other hand, is a requirement. I couldn't be with someone who doesn't smile and looks miserable all the time. There's nothing wrong with being serious most of the time but I want to be with someone who can have a laugh and is cheerful on a regular basis.

Also, I tend to be attracted to people who take care of themselves. Sounds vague? My definition of "taking care of yourself" includes things like watching your health (keeping fit, watching what you eat or drink, etc), appearance and hygiene.

Personality wise, someone who is open to new experiences and challenges is likely to score higher than someone who does the same thing day in, day out. It doesn't have to be rollercoaster ride of trying something different everyday but variety is the spice of life.

I find arrogance a complete turn off. I believe there is no valid reason for anyone to be arrogant but can understand that the line between pride in one's work/life/experiences and arrogance can be a fine one. I can tolerate arrogance and have been complimented on my ability to ignore it but if I had a choice I wouldn't get involved with someone cocky.

A well-rounded personality is very sexy indeed. If you can talk to people of different backgrounds and walks of life, get in touch! A good sense of humour is essential too, along with good manners!

Oh dear! Am I too picky? Will I be single for ever????

Question 2: I've always thought that blogs with adverts on look a bit cheap, what do you think?

I think blogs and websites with adverts on can look a bit cheap if they are not designed properly or if there are too many adverts on, especially ones with flashing images, colours that don't match the rest of the site's colour scheme, etc. Personally, I tend to ignore most adverts on websites but, at the same time, I find that the design of some websites make ignoring the adverts very difficult. As an internet user, if the adverts on a website irritate me, I stop visiting that particular website, especially if I can take my custom somewhere else.

Being a bit of an IT enthusiast (see dictionary definition for "geek"), I like to explore different ways of adding adverts to websites/blogs and adding value at the same time. How can this be done? Well, this is what I'm trying to find out. As you will have noticed over the past few months the adverts/banners have changed many times, not only in terms of the website they relate to but also their position within my blog, their relevance to what I was blogging about at the time and so on.

How is it adding value? Let's look at the scenario of me blogging about safe sex and referring to the use of condoms. I would like to think that an advert for an online store selling condoms would be quite useful. It raises awareness as many people who would be otherwise too embarassed to buy condoms from a shop realise that they can get them delivered at home.

What's in it for the blog owner/webmaster? If the advertising is targetted and the site gets enough hits daily, some money can be made from earning commission. How much have I made so far? Not a single penny, unfortunately! (What's the matter with you people? click on my ads and buy stuff! Just kidding!). I have a learned a lot though, whether I'll my knowledge in the future or not, I have no idea, but if you need a website consultant, you know who to contact! My fees are reasonable! lol!

What do you think? Are there too many ads on my blog? Are they distracting?

Question 3: You lost your virginity at 17, and with your definition of sex I'd guess that might have been a mutual masturbation session with a school friend. Whatever it was I'm sure my readers would like to know more, so can you go into any of the juicy details?

Juicy details? That's quite funny! Let me explain ...

My first time was with a 25 year-old I met on the internet. (I'll call him FT from now on). Anyway, I had been chatting to FT online for a couple of months before we met for the first time. We exchanged several email messages and photographs and spent hours on the phone chatting. He was obviously more experienced than me and confident about his sexuality whereas I was still quite confused. FT seemed quite understanding of my disposition and willing to take things slowly.

Anyway, the first time we met we went to the cinema and for a pizza. I am not 100% sure but I think we went for a pizza before going to the cinema because I remember having fun in the restaurant laughing and chatting but I was nervous in the cinema, I was afraid that he may want to touch my leg or something and I wouldn't know how to react. Anyway, he was a gentleman and didn't do anything like that. In fact, we didn't have any physical contact at all that night.

The next time we met we had coffee in a small cafe and then, knowing that I had the house to myself that night, we walked back to my place and ... the rest is history! lol! Just kidding!

The juicy details: FT was a real gentleman, I made tea, we sat on the sofa and chatted and then he asked me if it was ok to put his arm around me. I gave him the OK and a few minutes later I asked him if it was ok to put my hand on his leg. Permission was granted and then we started kissing. He complimented me on my technique, which was a big confidence booster for me as I'd never kissed a guy before. I can still remember being nervous and my heart beating but I enjoyed it.

We somehow got to my bedroom and put some music on. FT started undressing me, kissing my mouth and slowly moving down, my neck, nipples, tummy and then ... we kissed again. As I said, a perfect gentleman, he didn't seem to want to push me into doing anything I didn't feel comfortable doing. Then I reciprocated, removed his T-Shirt, started kissing him, etc, etc but I went a step further and removed his trousers! (I hope this doesn't sound like cheap porn literature!). He was hard and even I'd not seen an erect penis (how clinical does that sound?) before, I could it tell it was big!

He removed my trousers too, kissed my tummy again and then kissed the inside of my thighs. As you can imagine I was rather turned on. He then kissed my willy a few times and indicated that he'd like to remove my underwear and kiss it a bit more. As if I could have resisted, permission was granted immediately. He then took me in his mouth and showed me how it is done before giving me the opportunity to practice what I had just learned.

The next part is rather embarassing and I wish I hadn't asked to be interview but anyway ... most guys ejaculate very quickly the first time the have sex (allegedly), well, I didn't! I didn't cum at all! I remember several thoughts going through my mind that night, I was afraid that I may ejaculate too quickly but also at the same time felt nervous about my performance. Was I satisfying FT or was he bored? I wasn't sure. Also, considering how big he was "down there" I wasn't sure if my size was adequate.

Anyway, the third time we met everything functioned as expected and a lot of fun was had by both parties!

Sorry Gay Banker, your mutual masturbation with a school friend guess was wrong!

Question 4: You take the tube to work, you go out regularly on the London gay scene, so like me I guess you live in London. What do you think the pros and cons of living in London are?

I love London, some pros of living here:

• It's a very cosmopolitan city. There's people from all over the world here living, working and study. With that comes different restaurants and the opportunity to experience an important aspect of any culture (food!) without having to get on a plane.
• Culture: Theatres, museums, concerts, shows, you name it.
• You can find anything you want here but if you want to get away it's very easy to get away from the city and go anywhere else in the UK or Europe fairly cheaply.
• Cute guys!

and a couple of drawbacks:

• Cost of living! Ouch! One of the most expensive cities in the world!
• Pollution! Not as bad as other capital cities but fresh air is a rare commodity.

Question 5: Finally, you're 25 years old, so when do you think you'll evolve from a gay boy into a gay man?

Oh, tricky question! I don't feel like a "man" yet for several reasons:

• I don't own any power tools! lol!
• I like Kylie!
• I'm not mature enough yet and feel like "fun" is a big part of my life (that doesn't mean that men have less fun or are boring, btw!).

THE END!

Great questions, Gay Banker! I'm exhausted!

If anyone else is interested in participating in this game, have a look at the rules below.

Want to play? The Official Interview Game Rules:

• If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying, "interview me".
  
• I will respond by asking you five questions - each persons will be different.
  
• You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions.
  
• You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.
  
• When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

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Effective advertising

Have you seen the Philips Bodygroom website? They don't beat around the bush, do they? (see what I did just there? clever, huh?). No fancy marketing spiel, just "straight to the point" presentation of the features and benefits! Shame the guy doesn't get rid of his gown to give a demonstration of such a useful appliance.

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Eurovision Song Contest 2006 - Athens

Yes, it's that time of the year again, when almost every country in Europe (and some not strictly European countries) get together for an annual song contest, the Eurovision Song Contest. A contest known for cheesy music, camp performances, political voting and, on British television, sarcastic comments courtesy of Terry Wogan.

The contest takes place in Athens, Greece this year as Helena Paparizou won the competition last year with her song "My Number One". So, who's going to win this year? Well, we'll find out on Saturday night when the final takes place. I've always liked watching Eurovision, some of the songs are good, a mixture of ethnic music from the country of origin and cheesy pop.

I was disappointed when a few years ago the rules changed and performers are allowed to sing in any language they want instead of that of the country they represent. Considering the lyrics of some of the songs featured over the past few years, I would personally prefer to listen to a foreign language instead of (sometimes broken) English of lyrics that don't make any sense in any language!

I also find that there are too many countries taking place. Diversity is great and I am not surprised that the number of countries taking part has increased as the number of countries in Europe has increased! It also means that voting at the end of the show takes for ever, even though sometimes that the most fun part of the show! I believe this year points 1-8 will be automatically added up and only points 10 and 12 will be presented live.

Having listened to most of the entries taking part this year, I have to admit that I am not very confident about the British song. A rap song with lyrics that don't make any sense! I can't see the rest of Europe voting for something like that. My top 5 songs so far are:

1. Congratulations by Silvia Night representing Iceland
2. Without Your Love by Andre S representing Armenia
3. Never Let You Go by Dima Bilan representing Russia
4. Follow My Heart by Ich Troje representing Poland
5. Zjarr E Ftohte by Luiz Ejlli representing Albania

I don't think Silvia Night will win as she uses the "F" word in the song. It's a very gay song though! I think the Armenian song has a good combination of ethnic influences and pop appeal.

P.S. The countries that take part are members of the European Broadcasting Union (EBU), this includes not only countries of the European Union (EU) and countries of continental Europe but also Israel and countries of the former USSR, etc.

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Love Life, Stop AIDS

This picture was taken from lovelive.ch the website for the Swiss "Love Life Stop AIDS" Campaign. Please have a look and read the advice it offers. Also, check out the rather sleazy-looking yet cool love lips!

It makes me sad to hear that many people don't use protection these days. I can understand it to a certain extend if in a long-term monogamous relationship but I have heard about people having one-night stands without using condoms, which, if you ask me, is absolutely mad. Granted there may be drugs these days which can help HIV+ people to lead a long life but that doesn't mean that they have an easy life. Is it really worth taking the risk just for a few minutes of pleasure?

Please please please be careful!

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Shopping

This may sound a bit strange but ... I do NOT like going shopping! Well, that's not entirely true, I don't mind going shopping when visiting other countries, mainly because the shops tend to be completely different to the ones in the UK and I think that you can tell a lot about other cultures from the things they buy, i.e. the things available in shops. However, I don't like going shopping in the UK; it doesn't really matter which city you go to in the UK you see the same shops everywhere, Next, M&S, Topman, Boots, River Island, etc, etc. Admittedly some of the stock nice clothes and shoes but I really cannot be bothered to go shopping. I wish I could afford a personal shopper or stylist, I can sip champagne in the comfort of a comfy leather chair while the choose outfits for me to try on.

I guess the fact that I don't have an unlimited budget makes me want to choose clothes and shoes that can be worn in a variety of situations/occasions, which means one thing ... boring and safe clothes; lots of black and navy stuff! Anyway, I haven't really gone shopping for a few months now and desperately need a couple of new shirts, trousers and shoes but I'm dreading hitting the shops.

I'm a big fan of online shopping but unfortunately I don't really fancy risking buying clothes/shoes and then having to return them because they don't look anything like they do on screen or because they don't fit or whatever else.

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Funny!

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The Tube

I have a love/hate relationship with the Tube (no, it's nothing kingy, the Tube is another name for the London underground for those not in the know).

I absolutely hate it with a passion, especially in the Summer months. There is no airconditing and it can bet pretty hot. If I remember correctly, a while ago the temperature was measured on the various lines and it was something like 35 (Celsius) on some! Which is pretty hot, when there is not draft or fresh air coming in.

It is also quite dirty. Well, when I say I don't mean there is a lot of rubbish everywhere, but with a few million people of various levels of cleanliness use it on a daily basis, you can imagine the number of germs floating around! Yuck!

It is very convenient though and much better than having to take taxis (too expensive for my budget), buses and cycling (you must be a serious thrill-seeker to do it in central London). For what it offers it's quite expensive, compared to many other cities around the world but at the same time, London is one of the most expensive cities in the world for pretty much everything.

Another positive aspect is that sometimes you come across cute/good-looking gorgeous people that make the journey a whole lot less painful/boring. There was a really cute guy on my way in this morning who looked at me for a few seconds and then as I went past him to get off the train he looked me straight in the eyes, even though our faces were something like 2 inches away from each other! Beautiful blue eyes they were too! Nothing happened in the end, obviously, but it felt like a bit of fun and made the rest of my day! Does that make me sounds like a teenager? lol!

Oh, btw, if that was you looking at me with your beautiful blue eyes when I got off at Holborn this morning ... email me! lol!

Threesomes

I was naughty last night and participated in a bit of fun with a gay couple. Does that make me bad?

Anyway, it wasn't anything new, I've had 3somes before and they have all been fun to a certain extend. I've always been the one in the middle, funnily enough. When I say "in the middle" I don't mean physically; I mean a couple + me for spice. I'm well aware when something like this happens potentially one half of the couple may be into threesomes/me (i.e. the third person) than the other and in order to avoid any arguments or causing any friction I always try to spend my time pleasing the both guys equally. Sometimes it can be tricky as I'm only human and it is possible that I may like one of the guys more than the other but it's not something I want to make obvious.

Generally if the other guys have had threesomes before the whole experience flows very smoothly (especially if some alcohol is administered before the big event) and noone needs to worry about how much time each person spends doing what. In the odd occasion when the range of activities does not quite balance I feel that I have to take the lead and orchestrate in position! Which can be a lot of fun but makes me feel really dirty telling people what to do or not to! It makes me feel empowered, almost like a master of some sort but without the whip or the power (or will) to punish anyone!

What becomes difficult as the number of people participating in such an activity increases, is synchronising the big event ... the big bang ... the climax! OK, I'm generalising when I say this, as I've never experienced a 4some, 5some, orgy, (when is an 'orgy' an orgy?) but I imagine climaxing at the same time doesn't get any easier.

The only problem I have with threesomes is that I always feel guilty and slutty the following day. It also increases the (rather small) number of people I have been intimate with in my life so far. I guess I have to kiss a few frogs before I find my prince. I have to kiss a few frogs before I find my prince. I have to kiss a few frogs before I find my prince. I have to kiss a few frogs before I find my prince. Repeat x 100 to make me feel better.

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Hair removal

I am pretty hairy! Well, naturally pretty hairy! Hairy legs, hairy arms, hairy chest (btw, artwork on the right is by Monica Hughes), hairy ass, hairy ... privates. Thankfully my back is smooth and I hope it stays that way! Anyway, some people like hairy guys but unfortunately I am not one of them. The only exception is pubic hair. I haven't come across anyone who is completely smooth down there and I am not sure I want to.

So, I am naturally hairy but I like to groom myself! And when I say "groom" I mean the whole lot! I shave my chest, get my bum waxed, pluck my eyebrows, trim my nasal hair, shave my face and trim my pubes. It's a full-time job! lol! get in touch if you want to help! Aaaanyway, one part of my anatomy I have been pretty hesitant about removing the hair from was my balls. They are actually not very hairy and I guess I could get away with just making sure they are not too long every now and then. I don't think I could ever get them waxed as I imagine that would be too painful. But having recently seen a photo of a friend's shaved testicles ... I decided to do it too. The photo looked quite horny and I can't figure out why!

So, earlier on today, I decided to take my razor and place it near my crown jewels and ... I am happy to report that they remained intact. No cuts, no nicks! I made sure I massaged a lot of body lotion all over them (which turned me on and I had to ... deal with it, but that's another story), so my sack is smooth and soft now! Let's hope it lasts for a while. I would post a pic but that would be too rude for this blog! (Paypal bribes [see link on the left] will be considered but may not necessarily be honoured! Just kidding!).

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Aussiebum underwear

I've just been checking out the Aussiebum website and I have to say that I love their range of undewear and bathing suits. Some of it is a bit too expensive for my budget but the models wearing them certainly look hot (click on the photo on the right for a bigger version!).

Funnily enough I have actually seen real people wearing those tiny briefs at the gym and I have to say that not all of them look as good. I guess if wearing them makes you feel sexy, go for it! My body isn't too bad and I am told I have a nice bum so Aussiebums could look nice on me. Mind you, I wouldn't go as far as to photograph myself wearing them! I'm only saying this because I have seen "amateur" pics of guys with beer bellies wearing them and the result was not quite what the Aussiebum marketing team may have approved! Oh well, as I said, if it makes the person wearing them happy, so be it.

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Feeling blue

Well, another bank holiday weekend has come to an end and although I had a nice time, I'm happy that I can now resume my normal life and regular daily routine again. I've been feeling a bit blue for the past few days, a combination of feeling sick and missing the companionship of being in a relationship with someone. It's nice to know and be reminded on a regular basis that there is someone out the who really cares about me. I know my friends and family love me and would do everything in their power to make me happy but I also believe that the love and care that comes from being in a romantic relationship with someone is completely different, to a certain extend.

I'm sure that when I get over my cold everything will be back to normal and I won't be that bothered about being single but it would be nice to have someone to bring me a glass of orange juice without me having to ask for one, or to give me a kiss and smile, or just to ask how I'm doing.

I can't decide if I'm jealous of people who are in a relationship or not. "Envious" is probably a better word to describe how I feel.

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