Horny

I think the Winter is well and trully over and the Spring has arrived. One could tell by looking at today's date or ... just how horny I've been recently! No idea what's happening but I seem to be horny all the time! Which is good and bad. Sometimes it's good because I can do something about it! (am I typing this one-handed? ;-) ) but other times it's just an inconvenience, especially when around people I don't know or can't do anything with.

 

I like Spring! Not only cause I'm horny but also because the sunshine makes me feel happier than usual. The fact that guys start taking their clothes off helps too! I am looking forward to the Summer!

 

I just hope that with all this horniness and nice weather I'll start getting more sex! It's been a while now and I'm definitely looking forward to my next session. It would be nice to find someone nice soon. Is it time to lower my standards?

 

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Amazon response

Well, I haven't received a response from Amazon regarding my complaint BUT the "review" in question has been removed from their website! Result! I gather they received quite a few complaints for customers as I have seen this issue discussed in a couple of internet forums I am a member of. Well done to everyone who emailed Amazon customer services.

 

Anyway, I read somewhere that maybe the opinion shouldn't be removed, freedom of speech and all that. I am definitely for freedom of speech but I don't think the product review pages are a suitable place for an opinion that doesn't in any way help a consumer make an informed decision about a product. Had that opinion been posted in a forum, even though I wouldn't agree with it, I would not complain about it. People are entitled to their opinions and should be able to express their opinions. I am sure that any intelligent reader would be able to make their own minds about homosexuality and just one homophobic comment isn't likely to change people's perceptions of gay people. Especially an opinion that is not backed up by any solid arguments!

 

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Homophobia

I was just having a casual look at Amazon, reading reviews of books and DVDs and noticed a rather homophobic comment on the Brokeback Mountain DVD page. People are definitely entitled to their opinion, regardless of how narrow-minded they are but I was really surprised that Amazon approved such a clearly homophobic comment but published on their website as a "review" of the DVD.

 

I'm not usually one to take action and complain as, being a cynic, I believe most complaints are more hassle than their worth. But in this case I had to email Amazon customer services to complain:

 

Dear Sir/Madam,

 

I am writing to complain about one of the "reviews" of the Brokeback Mountain DVD .

The review in question reads: "Reviewer: presbyterian_calvinst from Barrow in Furness, CUMBRIA United Kingdom 
The elite liberals of Hollywood have simply produced a nasty underhand piece of propaganda, aimed at youth to influence them, through the notion that homosexuality is morally good and exists everywhere, and that homosexuals are "just like you and me". Trash . ".

 

As an Amazon customer and associate and someone who likes to write reviews about books and DVDs on your website as well as consumer review websites, I am disappointed to see that Amazon has allowed for such a clearly homophobic OPINION to be approved and featured on your website as the review of the DVD.

 

As a consumer, this opinion does not give me any indication about how good or bad the film is, what is good or bad about it or anything that will help me make an informed decision whether to buy it or not.

 

As an Amazon associate I am embarrassed to see that a company featured on my website as my preferred and recommended supplier for books condones such homophobic comments (NOT reviews!) and approves them to appear on their website and will be removing my association promptly.

 

I look forward to hearing from you soon.

 

Yours faithfully (????)

 

I very much doubt I'll get anything more than a template response. I'll keep you posted. The funny things is that .... I have a feeling that the person who wrote the above comment never did actually see the film. If you were that homophobic, would you go to the cinema to watch a film that is widely known to feature gay people/scenes?

 

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I can't be bothered :-(

Yuck! I can't be bothered with anything these days! I can't be bothered to do any work, I can't be bothered to go to bed, I can't be bothered to read, or watch TV or go in. I can't be bothered to masturbate. I've had enough of gay men and their attitudes! I'm just kinda bored with everything. Doing the same thing day in day out, seeing the same people (nice as they may be). The weather totally sucks, which doesn't help at all with my current mood. I just need a break!

 

A holiday would be nice, to get away from it all for a few days but that's not a realistic option right now, considering my financial situation or even taking the time off may be a bit tricky.

 

I don't know why but I have been thinking a lot about my ex boyfriend recently. It's been over a year now and although I wouldn't take him back even if he begged me, there's still a feeling of ... nostalgia, I guess, which is really bizarre because most of the time we spent together all we did was argue about silly things. I never enjoyed the arguing and I definitely do not miss it.

 

I don't really miss him and I don't love him anymore but the thought of him with someone else makes me sick. I would like to believe that if I wanted a relationship I would have found someone by now but I don't feel that I want any commitment right now. I miss having someone to cuddle at night and talk about any problems at work etc etc, but getting in a relationship right now is not fair for either party involved. Excuse me for being a drama queen for a bit but I feel that the wounds from my last relationship are still to fresh for me to be able to let myself go and experience what it's like to fall in love again. It sounds stupid but I don't want to feel vulnarable and out of control right now. I know falling in love is an amazing emotion but at the same time quite scary.

 

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Not me, not I

Dedicated to my ex! Up yours! *shows the finger*

 

You mixed me up for someone
Who'd fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess that we where seasons out of time
I guess you didn't know me

If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, no not me, not I

The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too
As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me

If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, not I, not I

All you said to me
All you promised me
All the mystery never did believe
No I never cry no I never not me not I

If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry No not I, I won't cry
No not me, not I, not I, Not I
No not me, not I

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Anal sex ... Virgin?

I couldn't sleep last night so I was thinking about ... stuff and it occured to me that in the past 12 months I've only had anal sex once! I can't believe it! Does that make me a effectively a virgin? or am I just picky?

 

Well, much as I would like to say I'm a (born again) virgin, I think I would be lying. I just like to think of me as having high standards. Yes, I have sex with a few guys over the past few months, not that many, before you decide to brand me a tart. I just chose not to have anal sex with them! Yes, I did have the option but I chose not to take it. I'd rather not get so intimate with someone I'm not in a relationship with. I guess I'm pretty old-fashioned in that respect.

 

The good thing is that I don't seem to get desperate for it or for sex in general. It has indeed been a while, maybe even too long, but still, I ain't gonna jump into bed with someone just because of that. I'm glad I'm so self-disciplined!

 

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Issues?

OK, it's 3:53am, I'm tired and drunk, just got back from a club so ... apologies if any of my drunken ramblings don't make any sense, or if my spelling is a bit off.

 

I noticed that my behaviour this evening was really strange. I don't know if it was my desire to feel liked, or wanted, or desired, or whatever but I noticed that I was very generous with my compliments. Compliments not to my friends or acquintances but to complete strangers! I told the bar tender who served me that I like her earings, I told one of the guys that was dancing near me that I like his belt, I told a guy that I like his smile. The problem is that some of that ... I didn't really mean :-( I'm sure telling the bartender about her earrings didn't really have any bad effects, even though she didn't serve me any faster but I feel bad for telling the guy that I liked his belt. OK, I did like his belt, but not to the extend that I felt it was important to verbalise it.

 

Did I make the people happy? Maybe, I didn't see anyone looking ecstatic but I'm sure they were pleased. Did my "lies" hurt or offended anyone? I hope not. Althought the belt guy did seem to want to get close to me after my compliment but is that my fault? probably :-( I feel a bit sh*t to a certain extend, to be honest. Being in a gay club and paying someone a compliment may have sounded like I was trying to pick them up?

 

Yuck! I wish I'd think before I opened my mouth. I don't know why I did it so much this evening. Maybe I miss being with someone who will do that for me and make me feel special.

 

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Gay? Straight? Bi?

If only I had a penny everytime I have been asked this question. My answer largely depends on who's asking. If it's someone I don't know and it's none of their business, I usually tell them so. If it's someone in a gay chat room or someone I know to be open-minded, I tell them I'm gay.

 

When I was younger and still a virgin, I used to think of myself as bisexual. Not having had sex with a man it was difficult for me to say that I was gay; I thought that by "labelling" myself as gay I was effectively terminating the possibility of ever having sex with a woman. Not that I've ever had sex with a woman. I used to have a girlfriend when I was a teenager but we never went past kissing and gropping a bit.

 

I now know for sure that I am gay but being the curious person that I am I sometimes wonder what it would feel like to be intimate with a woman. I don't think I could bring myself to have oral sex with one but maybe I could do the ... penetrative activity! Somehow, I don't think it'll ever happen, unless it was with a lady who was fully aware of my sexual history and was willing to let me have a go, as it were.

 

I am not an ugly bugger and I imagine that I would be able to "pull" a girl in a club or pub but, at the same time, I don't think it would be fair for her to be involved in something like that, sounds almost like "entrapment". I think it would be even worse if ... erm, I couldn't perform for whatever reason. Even if I did, I think to would be obvious to her that I've never done it with a lady before ... unless I was a complete natural!

 

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Cybersex!

Been there, done that, got the T-shirt, it doesn't fit me ... anymore.

When I was still a virgin I used to love it. I guess it was the nearest I could get to the real stuff. And it was completely safe too. It didn't matter if the other person hadn't had a shower or brushed their teeth for years, as long as the talked the talk and supplied my imagination with a constant feed of sexy thoughts, I was a happy bunny.

Nowadays, I can't be bothered with cybersex anymore. Having tasted the "forbidden fruit", I much prefer the real stuff to being aroused by someone who most likely doesn't look anything like what they say they do. I'd be lying if I said I haven't tried it recently, but I find that I get annoyed after a few minutes of "ASL?", "What are you into mate?" and "tell me what you want to do to me". So much so that I turn sarcastic ...

My usual answers?

• ASL? - (Considering that my ID is usually something like "LondonBoy25"): 83 Female Scotland.
• I like conjugating verbs and long division OR I like collecting stamps and trainspotting. (Apologies to all of you who may be into some of or all of the above. No offense intended!).
• Ignore you.

However, things have improved since the introduction of webcams. Now you can actually see what the other person looks like and you don't have to imagine what they're doing as they will most likely be willing to show you, if you don't mind reciprocating.

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Brokeback mountain!

I have finally managed to watch "Brokeback mountain"! Overall ... I liked it. Unfortunately I had read what happens in the end before watching the film so I wasn't surprised. (I'll try not to give any spoilers in this post).

 

I felt that the first half of the film was very fast-paced. I wish there was a bit more character development. We didn't really get to know very much about the main characters before they started ... well, getting it on. The second half was much better though.

 

Watching the film made me feel really sad a few times. I can imagine it must have been really difficult being gay back then. The sex scenes were ok, nothing OTT. I felt that the heterosexual sex scenes were more graphic than the gay ones.

 

If I had to use only one word to describe the film, I would choose "beautiful". The scenery was breathtaking and the actors were good looking. Oh, I just remembered of one detail I didn't particularly like ... the eye make up used to make the actors look old ... maybe too much of it was applied? I thought it looked quite fake.

 

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Sleepless in ...

Seattle? Nah! In the UK!

 

Well, it's just after 3am here in the UK and I can't sleep! No idea why! Too many things on my mind, worrying about everything, I guess. It's been happening a lot recently, even though I am really tired I can never go to sleep easily. I've had a few days of getting up early, working all day, going to the gym, staying up late and still not be able to sleep straight away. It just seems that the moment I stop watching TV, using the internet, reading my book I start worrying about parts of my life that could be better; right now there are SO many things that could improve.

 

I am a bit of a perfectionist and my life is OK, I'm a fairly good-looking healthy guy, I have friends and family that love me (even though some of them don't know I'm gay) but, right now, there are just so many aspects of my life that are not even satisfactory. I don't think I'm greedy; if my life was good and I wanted it to be exceptionally good, that would make greedy. But it's far from good at the moment.

 

Anyway, not being able to sleep and things buzzing around my head, I just realised that I have officially been single for over a year! OMG! time sure flies when you're having fun! or not, as the case may be! The year has gone by very quickly and although the first few months of singledom were quite difficult I don't mind it now. Some nights I miss having someone to have a cuddle with but overall I don't miss being a relationship. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to have someone to call my boyfriend/partner but the last relationship I had was not particularly fulfilling on many levels and left me feeling quite empty.

 

I'd love to meet someone who will whisk me off my feet; someone to fall in love with but at the same time I am not looking forward to the vulnerability of losing emotional control. It's a scary feeling! That doesn't mean that I don't want to fall in love or love someone, I just think that maybe right now is not the right time in my life for it to happen. For the record, I would still pursue it, IF it did happen. (Unfortunately?!?!?) I am one of those who put their whole hearts into a relationship and try to overcome any potential incompatibilities. This doesn't always work but the thought of hurting someone else, myself or both is not something that pleases me! To the contrary!

 

I WOULD LIKE to think that even though I've been hurt a couple of times before, I would still be more than happy to embark in a relationship and try to make it work, if there is even a small possibility of success.

 

In the meantime ... sex is good ;-)

 

P.S. That last sentence was an unsuccessful attempt to lighten up after writing all of the above!).

 

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